Tag: Poetry

A (sort of) original Florida poem

Poolside scene in a Florida community
In Florida

In Florida the flowers grow
Between the houses, row on row,
   While in the trees crows remonstrate
   As if to warn, "The time is late!"
And vex the tranquil scene below.

We are the Old. Short days ago
We sold and bought, we mastered fate, 
    Or so we thought, and now we wait
        In Florida.

Next-comers all, be sure you know
The doleful message of the crow.
    Be not deceived, there's no debate,
    Man does not know his hour nor date.
And so we wait, though flowers grow,
         In Florida.

(2024)

The other day, while pondering my complicated feelings about my new home state, I found myself muttering a scrap of what I thought was spontaneous verse: “In Florida the flowers grow, between the houses, row on row.”

Pleased with the sound of this line, I thought, “Hey, I might really have the start of something good here!” But soon I realized it was too good to be true. This snippet sounded much too familiar to be original.

It was, of course, a blatant rip-off of the well known World War I poem, “In Flanders Field,” written by John McCrae, a Canadian soldier who would later die in that conflict. That poem was included in my mother’s precious 1929 edition of “One Hundred and One Famous Poems,” so I must have heard it read aloud many times in my youth. Its words had been buried in my subconscious for decades only to emerge just last week.

Well, darn.

I was hoping that perhaps the muse had returned. I had been in an extended period of writer’s block since moving from Washington State three years ago. In addition to the aggravation of selling a house, packing up, moving across the country, and settling into a new home, I had become the sole caregiver for my wife. A bicycle crash and subsequent spine operation had landed her in a wheelchair. With all that going on I scarcely thought of writing.

But lately, the old itch flared up and I began to sense the need to start putting words on paper again. However, when I realized I was just copying somebody else’s poem, my first inclination was to shelve it and forget it.

Then the thought occurred: Why not take this on as an exercise? I’d rewrite “In Flanders Field” as a way to work through my feelings about our new home. A little poetry therapy, perhaps. And then, maybe, just maybe, other more original ideas would come.

Something about the tone of that poached first line captured the mood … the feelings I was experiencing about this place.

I couldn’t let it go.

Robert Frost once said that writing a poem is having an argument with yourself. I was certainly conflicted about leaving the beautiful Pacific Northwest. But I also love a lot about Florida. You don’t need to bundle up with layers of fleece and rain gear. You never have to scrape ice off your car or shovel the precipitation. The culture still has a decent natural immunity against communist insanity, possibly due to the influx of Cuban refugees who fled when Castro took over in 1959.

That’s all positive. But I still dearly miss our Seattle friends and neighbors, and walks through the changing seasons and cedar-scented hills.

And, once we moved here I began to understand why my wise, late father-in-law, described Florida as “God’s Waiting Room.”

There are sure a lot of old people here! The the most common topics of conversation at social events revolve around health, ailments, and operations. It seemed like we’d just barely settled in and we were already going to funerals of new friends and neighbors.

The whole place is sort of life-sized memento mori.

With all these ambivalent feelings swirling about, I sat down to see what I could lift from McCrae’s poem for my purposes. Somewhere in the process I justified my thievery by likening it to modern recording artists who sample an earlier song and combine it with original material to create something new. Hey, if Snoop Dogg and Beyonce can do it, why can’t I?

But first I had a lot to learn about the poem I was about to rework. I discovered that McCrae wrote it after presiding over the funeral of a fallen friend on May 3, 1915. Legend has it that he was so dissatisfied with his verse that he threw it away only to have it retrieved by his fellow soldiers.

(In a weird bit of synchronicity, I’m pretty sure it was May 3 of this year when I first got the idea for my version. And I, too, initially decided to scrap the idea.)

“In Flanders Field” is a 15-line rondeau with a precise rhyme scheme. This form was popular in medieval and Renaissance French poetry, and later adopted by English poets. I’d never tried to write anything like this before, and took it as a challenge.

I believe my attempt was faithful to the structure of the original, except for the addition of internal rhymes in the last two verses. (A little twist just for fun.)

Time will tell if this warm-up exercise will lead to more inspiration.

 

Haiku before leaving

A girl on a bike
passes through the streetlamp’s glow
and then she is gone

(2021)

This one is from three years ago, but somehow I never got around to posting it. I did not realize what I would miss about leaving Washington state three years ago. But on one of my last walks in the late winter evening damp I felt the impending loss of many things. I knew we would be moving soon.

My wife was learning to navigate life in a wheelchair after a fluke bike crash and subsequent spine surgery. We had lived for nearly 28 years in our two-story home, and now that she could no longer get up the stairs she resorted to sleeping in the dining room and showering at church.

On this evening, with her safely ensconced in bed, I got out for a bit of exercise. And I became keenly aware of loss. Our old life had already undergone drastic change and more big changes were coming soon.

The walks together through the changing seasons, up and down the hills and winding paths. The first spring crocus blossoms. The fragrance of cedar and plum blossoms. The chorus of song birds that woke us up on bright May mornings. The surprising glimpses of distant snow-capped peaks when the clouds parted. The long, perfect sunny, summer days. The brilliant leaves in autumn. The fog and mist and even the ubiquitous rain.

We would be leaving behind our dear neighbors and friendships forged over nearly three decades. Our familiar haunts, the used bookstore where I could always find an interesting old book of poetry. Not least, our home where we had raised our children, hosted countless dinners, laughed and conversed into the night, and where, without realizing it, we had grown old together.

It sunk in: I would miss it all.

Poem for Mother’s Day

My mom as a young mother

She Knew the Names of Things

She knew the names of things, knew them by heart.
Not just the farmwife flowers of the yard,
But the wild ones in the hidden woods.
And in the woods, she knew the names of trees.
She knew quaint sayings about country ways.
“That’s no sign of a duck’s nest,” she would say,
Defying explanation even then.

She knew the names of birds, common and rare:
The Red Wing, Meadow Lark and Mourning Dove,
Brown Thrush and Gold Finch and sad Whippoorwill.
She knew them by their call as well as sight.

She knew the names of lonely widowed aunts,
And she knew dates and anniversaries,
And surely, she recalled that doleful day
When the son who called her “Mother” was fished
By divers out of San Diego Bay.
For grief, she never spoke of it again.

And though she’d barely gone to school, she
Had sense enough to hang a dishrag up,
She knew her Whitman and her Bible well.
And when the door-yard Lilacs bloomed she paused
Amidst the sweet perfume, breathed, and recalled
The poem and soft fragrance that she loved,
Sweet messenger of spring—but not too sweet,
Not like the syrupy Petunias
That she also loved, but differently.
She always favored the modest flowers
That had a tinge of tragedy and loss
Like Lilacs and Lilies of the Valley,
Named for the suffering Savior of mankind.
She knew the things she loved, and she could name them.

But winter of the mind came drifting in
And names of things were slowly covered up,
As when the snow erases hue and shape
And leaves the garden white, formless and blank.

The soaring Hollyhocks were overcome,
Begonias, Honeysuckle, Marigolds,
The Morning Glories high atop the gate
Were covered, as was Aunt Minerva, too,
(Whom she loved like the mother she had lost),
And cousin Gene undone at Normandy,
And buried there amidst a cross-white field.

Peonies bowed their heavy heads beneath
The heavy snow and disappeared away.
So too, the old folks’ graves that she adorned
With their bouquets each Decoration Day.

Wild Lady Slipper too did not escape,
Entombed beneath its own soft shroud of white
With Buttercup, Catalpa, Trumpet Vine,
With Thistle, Jimsonweed and Columbine.
And covered too were Maples, Elms and Oaks,
The Willow tree we started from a branch,
The stately Cottonwood that soared above
The old farm woods, completely covered up.

And covered too were barefoot childhood days
On Clear Creek growing up carefree, before
Her still-young mother died of Spanish Flu,
And left five other kids for her to raise.
Those days she loved them, and she knew their names:
Hayward, Walden (though others called him Joe)
Jesse, Vivian, and the youngest Bill.
All these names buried and forgotten now.

Gone was her motto written out longhand
Held by a magnet to the old icebox
With wise and frugal counsel: “Use it up
Wear it out. Make it do, or do without.”

Old photographs stuck in a musty book
Assembled even as the blizzard blew,
A vain attempt to thwart the mounting snow,
The names obliterated anyway
By endless pitiless nameless white.

I walk now through the fiery leaves of fall
And ponder piles of faded photographs,
Repeating names I learned so long ago,
Recalling things and places I have loved

In hopes this recitation will forestall
My own impending blanketing of snow.
Perhaps my winter will be mild—or not.
Perhaps I will become snowbound as well.

But I shall say the names of things ’til then
And recall her who taught them first to me.
Remembering, turn my face to winter’s blast,
Defying it to dare to land a blow.
For I shall sing the names of things until
I lie here frozen stiff beneath the snow.

(2019)

NOTES: I thought I hated Alzheimer’s Disease before when it robbed us of Mother far too soon. But just a few years ago it also took my dear friend and schoolmate, Clyde Smith. It’s a horrible, cruel disease. Cruel to the victim and cruel to the loved ones.

The poems I learned at my mother’s knee employed meter and rhyme. So it’s only natural that I’m most comfortable with forms like ballads and sonnets. They speak my heart language. I’ve long agreed with Robert Frost that writing in free verse is like playing tennis with the net down. It may do wonders for the self esteem, but it’s hardly sporting.

A few years ago, I had the itch to write something longer than a sonnet, or something more ambitious than eight lines of rhyming couplets. In hindsight, I believe that I needed to wrestle with the grief of losing two people so close to me to such a dreadful disease. It was going to be a protracted struggle, and a mere sonnet just couldn’t do.

I settled on blank verse, which sticks with meter, but dispenses with the need for rhyme. Sort of like playing tennis with the net lowered a couple of feet. I suppose if it was good enough for Marlowe and Shakespeare, it should be good enough for me.

Poem in Praise of Freedom

In praise of freedom

INDEPENDENCE DAY

The wind and you played in my hair,
+++You lambent in the moon,
The night arranged as by design,
+++Mysteriously boon.

Afresh the breeze and warm our hands,
+++So lately introduced,
Traced so gently new found lands,
+++From tyranny aloosed.

While all around with fire and bang
+++Our freedom was proclaimed,
A nation’s liberty was meant,
+++To us, two hearts unchained.

(1982)

As we reflect on our nation’s past, I’m reminded of a bit of personal history. Some 38 years ago, a couple of crazy kids snuck up to the roof of the Calhoun Beach Club in Minneapolis to watch fireworks.

They didn’t quite realize it yet, but they were falling in love. Like our country, they were not perfect. But, like our country, they had tasted the mercy of Jesus and dreamed of a more perfect union.

We’re still working on it.

Anniversary Poem

Flowers and love in bloom

That Day We Lay Upon the Grass

That day we lay upon the grass,
+++A luminescent green.
The sparks that arced from arm to arm
+++Across the space between.

Our bodies quickened by the sun,
+++The willow leaves aflush,
The sunlight sparkling on the lake,
+++Our blood bestirred to rush.

Up and down the parkway, flowers
+++Enticing with their blooms,
Our loveless winter ended there,
+++Emerging from our tombs

For we had slept as sleepers sleep,
+++Unmindful of the world,
Astonishingly we awoke,
+++Much like a rose unfurled.

(2015)

Some 38 years ago two wanderers, unlucky at love, stumbled upon each other. Magic ensued.

It took me three years, but I finally persuaded her to marry me. I’m now a lucky guy, blessed beyond measure.

One More for Poetry Month

Obviously destined to write poetry

I Sing Not for Glory

I sing not for glory nor for bread,
Nor for the praise of the credentialed clique.
But for hire more valuable instead,
To touch the honest kindred heart I seek.

I sing for lovers when love is green,
When time stops for a solitary kiss.
When light shines anew as with new eyes seen,
I celebrate your fey and fragile bliss.

I sing for the lonely, lovelorn heart,
When light grows cold and aching will not cease,
When your enchanted world falls all apart,
I offer modest salve to give you peace.

I sing for the pilgrim searching soul
Pursuing the heart’s true cause and treasure.
May Heaven’s Hound, you hasten to your goal,
And propel you to your proper pleasure.

I sing for the wise who see their end,
And, too, for those who have not yet awoke.
For to a common home we all descend,
With common dirt for all our common cloak.

I sing not for money nor for art,
Nor to amuse curators of our trade.
The simple wages of the simple heart
Will satisfy when my accounts are weighed.

(2017)

A few years ago a friend asked me, “Why poetry?”

I didn’t really have a snappy answer. Actually, I hadn’t analyzed it very much. I’d grown up reading poetry.  Some of my earliest memories of nursery thymes, and a bit later later the delightful poems of Eugene Field and the stirring tales of Longfellow. My mother loved Frost. In high school, our teachers introduced us to Shakespeare, Whitman, and William Cullen Bryant, and many others.

A few years later, when I hit a patch where life didn’t seem to make sense, it only seemed natural to express the distress in poetry. It was if putting things in order with some sort of design helped achieve a measure of equilibrium, if only for a little while.

And I’ve been doing that off and on ever sense.

That question from my friend set me to wondering. And the result was this modest poem.

The photo is from a time when I fancied myself wise, but still didn’t have enough experience to know very much at all.

Sonnet composed before corona

Flowering tree in April

Our Paradise

Wafting comes the mower’s comforting hum,
Assuring all is just as it should be.
Our gates and fences all are rightly plumb,
We celebrate our capability.

New curbs and gutters sluice away wild rain,
Alarms and locks protect our doors from breach,
Our lives arranged to minimize our pain,
Designed to keep us safely out of reach.

But wreaking roots upheave the sidewalk path,
And worms devour our precious woolen thread,
The black and red mold creep into our bath,
Insomnia disturbs our peace in bed.
Despite our engineering and our math,
Our paradise is something less instead.

(2016)

Today was almost perfect in our little suburb. The spring sun was shining, the flowering trees were peaking, it was not too hot and not too cool. The night before, the moon was still almost full and it was splendid.

This afternoon few cars were out in the streets. Homeowners were gardening and mowing and washing their windows. Couples were out walking their dogs.  When you met a neighbor you nodded and smiled.

Yet all was not well.

When you met that neighbor you veered several feet away so as not to breathe any air they may have exhaled from their lungs. There were no close or extended conversations. Some walkers are wearing face masks.

You see so many people in the neighborhood because their schools and businesses are closed. We are home bound and quarantined.

There is a plague in the land.

So much of what filled our time just four weeks ago is now unavailable. It’s been unlike any Lenten period in my lifetime. We have given up, albeit involuntarily, all gatherings for entertainment, sports, parties, dining, drinking or carousing. I’m unsure if I’m any wiser or if my heart is any softer for it.

I didn’t have anything like our current pandemic in mind when I wrote this a few years ago. But I thought of it today on my walk.

Love in the time of corona

Spring blossoms on our well-worn path

Familiar Ways

I choose to walk the old familiar ways,
To wend ways where I’ve put my foot before,
To gaze anew on views seen other days,
Which, though familiar, never seem to bore.

The changing light and seasons have their ways
Of making old things new: The light-laced hoar,
The first-flush, green-glow, bursting-forth spring days,
The growing tinge of gold we can’t ignore.

Each day, my dear, I choose afresh our trail,
The one we blazed so many years ago,
Eschewing other routes that might avail,
And hewing to the well-worn way we know.
Forsaking novelty need be no jail
With your face bathed in sunset’s golden glow.

(2016)

NOTES: March is arguable the most beautiful time in the Pacific Northwest. The days are growing longer. Yellow daffodils are rampant. And the ornamental plum and pear and cherry trees are exploding with pink blossoms.

In normal times, my only quibble with March is that it also brings on the dusting of alder pollen, which makes me sneeze. (Has anyone ever established a good reason for alder trees to have been created? I am skeptical.)

But these are not normal times. As with the rest of America and most of the world, we are in the grip of the global coronavirus pandemic. As a result, most of us have been largely confined to our homes, venturing out on only the most urgent matters. We are taking shelter in our homes like characters in some post-apocalyptic movie, waiting for the worst to pass.

We can still get out and take walks (as long as we observe the proper “social distancing” by moving 10 feet away when we meet passers-by.) Given our current semi-quarantined status, I don’t care how high the pollen count. I’m going for a walk to look at the scenery!

As I walk, I almost always take the same routes through our semi-rural suburban neighborhood making sure to include as many hills as possible. I’ve been walking it for years but it never gets boring.

In times like this, you take stock of what’s really important.

There’s a metaphor in there somewhere.

 

January Lament

The path gives way to stone

Winter Walk

The Yuletide lights are packed away,
+++++Grey leaves creep down the street.
The trees at dusk are shades of grey,
+++++Grey sky makes grey complete.

The old man mutters as he scrapes
+++++His trash can to the curb.
The trees complain and sway their shapes
+++++As gusts their peace disturb.

A solitary sparrow picks
+++++A solitary seed
Out from the desiccated sticks
+++++To slake its piercing need.

Thin clouds scud past the frozen moon,
+++++The distant highway drones,
Debris from windy storms lies strewn,
+++++The path gives way to stones.

We’ve reached the nadir of the year,
+++++The time when flowers sleep.
No wish can make them reappear
+++++From their repose so deep.

(2019)

NOTES: We had one of those exciting winter storms last week in the Pacific Northwest, complete with snow and strong winds. The lights flickered, but thankfully, this time the power did not go off. The walking paths were littered with the branches and boughs of many an evergreen. A few weaker trees in the woods were blown completely over. The consolation was that for a few days afterwards, my walks were suffused with the most pleasant fragrance of cedar and pine.

Poem in Autumn

Autumn leaves

Autumn Lament

September’s sun has come and gone
+++And now the fall is here.
October’s blaze adorns the lawn,
+++The swan song of the year.

The bonfires of my autumns past
+++Burn cool as I recall
The hayride loves that failed to last
+++Beyond the end of fall.

Out on the gridiron battlefield,
+++Where so much toil was paid,
Where cheers and chants once loudly pealed,
+++Now flags and glory fade.

Our friends and kinsmen now are few.
+++Our lovers are all gone.
All those we thought would see us through
+++Cannot be counted on.

When we were young we loved the fall.
+++We loved the leaves aglow.
Knew always we’d have one more fall.
+++Those days, what did we know?

(2018)

When I wrote this one last year, I had no idea how prophetic it would be. In the past 12 months, I’ve learned of the deaths of my sister-in-law, and a college dormmate. And just recently, I discovered that the high school buddy I shared more experiences with than any other has entered an Alzheimer’s nursing home.

I used to love the fall.